Love

I may be young but I do think I have learned a lot about love in the last couple of years. The biggest thing being, you cannot choose who you love. No matter how hard you try, or even if you want to get out of it because it's a difficult situation, like long distance, you can't. I do think it has made me mature in certain respects, as the relationship has matured. I am not as naive as I once was. I know now that making things work is hard, especially if it's long distance. You have to find solutions for missing out on birthday's, holiday's, etc, like sending pizza to them on their birthday. I know that breaks aren't for everyone but sometimes they can completely change the relationship. For instance, I hadn't seen my boy for a year and a half up until last month and things are better than they have ever been. Leaving Hawaii was the hardest thing I've ever had to do but I think it was a smart move in the end. Guys can be lazy and make excuses til they're blue in the face and girls can be dramatic and catty but the key is that you'd rather fight with them than play nice with anyone else.

I don't want to say that I'm happy all day everyday but at the end of the day I am happy and after three years, he can still give me butterflies all the way from Hawaii to Massachusetts. Who knows how it will end but all I know is that I am sticking with it for now.

Loving Life

At this time in my life I may not have a lot, but what I lack in funds, I certainly make up for quality of life. I cannot say just how much I love the girls I live with and how much they make me laugh. For instance, Kengy had me dying because she and her dog Baya were doing the chicken dance today. We all love to just laugh so much and talk about our dreams. I think we all talk about getting married more than anything. It has only been two months but some of the conversations we've shared have meant more to me than most. I'm so thankful for them because they and my dreams are the only thing that's holding me together these days.

Soon it will be spring. Everything is more hopeful in the spring. I look forward to warm weather, flowers and being able to drive with the windows down. Everything seems possible with a fresh breeze and warm sun. Looking forward to brighter days and enjoying the love and support I'm receiving now.

Global Warming

Dang people, stop being so Eco friendly! Winters are reverting back to the way they use to be, I swear we're reversing Global Warming! I remember getting Nor'easters in April when I was a kid, I'm okay with that not happening ever again... April's suppose to be full of showers NOT of flurries. So please stop buying your hybrid cars and fluorescent light bulbs because we were one hot flash in January away from having Florida weather all year round!

In all seriousness though, despite the fact that we've had one snowstorm a week since January started, I do sincerely hope that weather is returning to it's former glory around here. I miss bees and the mild summer days that were perfect for shorts, T-shirts and shoeless feet and summer nights that were comfortable with simply a light sweatshirt, perfect for chasing fireflies in the dark. Missing that kind of weather has seriously got me thinking that maybe warm weather is where I need to be. I know I've tried moving to a warmer climate previously and it failed in epic proportions, but maybe I was in the wrong ocean. I have always been an Atlantic kind of girl and my family's blood is part of the Eastern sea for we did lose one of our own to Boston Harbor many a year ago.

Thoughts from the day

It's funny how listening to old school music like Etta James makes you feel lonely if you're alone and full of love if that special someone is close by...

Helping my friends with relationships seems to be a reoccurring theme these days. It seems that honest to goodness true love is hard to find these days and down to earth people are even harder. I have seen what falling in love with heartless humans have done to my friends and I have seen what falling for amazing people has done to them as well. One of my dear friends is going through a tough time as we speak and I see everyday the weight that she bears from being with someone who seems to truly not care. I have faith though that one of these days she'll find the Romeo to her Juliet.

On the flip side, I saw a friend struggle for some time and was in a real rut, not just with relationships but with life, until one kiss changed everything. She came home over analyzing this kiss and I had never seen her freak out this much about anything, so I knew she was crazy about this person from the beginning. They've been together for two years now and have been living together for a year and a half, and even though I miss her everyday because she moved away, it makes me happier than anything to see her so happy. I can only dream that each and every person I care about ends up every bit as happy as she is.